blog of the day

hello diary!! today i wanted to write about...

um, why i've decided to make a blog!

true, i already have several parts on my site that are specifically for webmaster rambling, but they're all quite tiny and meant for one off quips, not longform thought, and i'd like somewhere to put my longform thoughts on things!

my thought of the day being...

radiostatic variants! ignoring murdermedia which is clearly my main thing (and my current hyperfixation..); i also have been enjoying sparksduo to a surprising extent, given that i used to not really care about it.

i kind of get why some people hate it though; in sd vox IS pretty infantilized.. too much fan content of crt!vox portrays him as being like a little baby.. very weird.

i do think their best friends dynamic is cute though! sweeties.. i hope in later seasons we see more of what vox/alastor were like together pre-canon, their dynamic utterly fascinates me. especially vox's like that's like, "people know us!" like they do?! youre a brand?!

oh i forgot this was about variants in general; um, i also am a huge fan of holymedia (when its mixed with murdermedia), and i adore radiocult of course because i adore vincent immensely. that's all!

hello diary!! today i wanted to write about...

vincent whittman (obviously)

but more so vincent being gnc as well as his sexuality! because i have a lot to say and a lot to jot down here.

i've written extensively (elsewhere..) about vincent internalized homophobia and lavender marriages, especially later on in his life, but i often feel like headcanons like this sometimes ignore that vincent also, like, likes.. women? he's not gay, he's bi! and sometimes vincent (and vox but you know where my loyalties are) sexuality conversations ignore his very much canonical attraction to women in favor of painting him as a repressed gay man

which would be all well and good if it weren't for the fact he is canonically bisexual. this happens with all bisexual characters though. anyway i do think vincent would've also dated/been with women not as a lavender thing but out of genuine attraction; but much like all the men, i do think he would have also killed said women after he'd lost interest. so. blehh

anyway back to gnc vincent! while vincent in canon is portrayed as pretty gender conforming (i believe even his sparkly blazer at the end of brighter would've been period-appropriate and common for men to wear at that point, though i may be misremembering!) in my beautiful mind he dressed a lot more.. 'aggressively' femininely so to speak? i mean why not its not like anyone can stop him. i yearn for a world in which he was depicted with longer/messier hair and painted nails..

in my beautiful mind i whiplash between seeing vincent as gnc cis or as nonbinary (but an egg due to the time period he was in). i also whiplash between seeing him as nb transfem or as a trans man, which i think could both be really fun readings! i've noticed (mm wise) i see a lot of nonbinary/transfemme/transmasc alastor but not really that same gender exploration with vincent, which makes sense! alastor is a lot more feminine/androgynous than vincent/vox is, and i dont really often see trans/nb headcanons/readings for characters that are gender conforming.

not saying they don't exist especially because i'm not super involved in fandoms anyway (i tend to self-isolate with my interests) but from what i've observed..

that's all for now! maybe i'll put my powerpoint night powerpoint on this site at some point. doubtful because it was mostly incoherent rambling but whateva

hello diary!! today i wanted to write about...

one of my favorite songs of all time, but also one of my favorite vincent songs (but also one of my favorite songs in general): my manic and i by laura marling!

please give it a listen if you never have. im no good at describing genre but it's.. acoustic guess? im bad at describing what songs sound like. its an acoustic folk song about loving somebody that experiences mania, simplified down. if you couldn't tell by the title!

i first heard this song years ago as a teenager, probably back in 2020? and i thought it was kind of incredible, and it became one of my favorite songs. this entire time it's stayed one of my favorite songs in my rotation even though it's a bit of a damper mood wise.

and by a bit of a damper i mean it's sad. but it's good! but it's sad.

now you may be saying, "v, you said this was a vincent song?" and yes i did! but i felt the need to praise the song and get you to (hopefully) listen to it before i apply it to my fictional blorbo. please listen to it. okay.

i don't have a particularly long analysis beyond associating a few lyrics mostly with his in-canon death because i'm silly like that, specifically the line:

which to me is fitting for a man who died in an abandoned aquarium cult, and whose death likely outweighed his legacy in entertainment given how gorey/extravagent that it was! we also have:

which again is pretty fitting for a character who is literally drawn at some point as being blinded by light/blinded by others. i dont want to sound like that "perchance" essay so im going to stop just repeating what the lyrics say

yeah i mean that's pretty self explanatory i think. not also including vincent's monologue towards the end of brighter directed at his cult; where he believes in the god of entertainment/the concept of tv? listen man im trying to extrapolate meaning from hazbin hotel you have to bear with me. i just find the entire concept of vincents cult fascinating because we know very little about it. we only know 100% that it's a cult because it's referred to it as that way earlier on in s2. genuinely he was just yelling at people in a wet room about entertainment. why? we.. dont know. we probably never will.

if i were to guess i would assume he gained a cult following from broadcasting snuff on air (which i guess you could just fucking do in the 50s?); the cult couldve sprung up from people enjoying seeing unsantized content on tv, latching onto vincent as like, 'only guy on tv thats not just showing cooking show reruns or whatever people are watching in the 50s'. i mean if you were there and your options were either the news or the same sitcoms or. getting to see people die. youd probably choose seeing people die.

tldr i really love this song and this is my favorite lyric fromi t: